Unconscious Bias

The current global conversation is systemic racism.

As I reflect on my own experiences unhealed wounds begin to open. Ive been in denial.  Not about racism but about the racist microaggressions I experience daily. 

My immigrant parents came to this country seeking a better way of life. The US in the 60s and 70s was a paradise of opportunities for them. I was taught the path to success was education and hard work. They supported my natural curiosity. Endured my mischievousness. Pushed my thinking and inspired me to rise above challenges. As a result Ive become a man who is Independent, sensitive, multilingual and adventurous. Ive been blessed.

My value system is grounded in: Listening. Speaking Up. Standing Up. 

But people like me who speak up are usually marginalised, pushed back, called difficult and confrontational. And perceived as a threat. Over the years I've adjusted my behavior. Slouched to make myself smaller, spoke softly as to not be perceived aggressive and spoke proper as to not appear ghetto. Then the perception changed to unapproachable, unfriendly and unengaged. I could never win. The responsibility of change was always placed on my shoulders. And when I explained my point of view, eyes would glaze over and I could see the disinterest. I could see that my opinion did not matter. I do not matter. I do not exist except to be subjugated. Im tired. Exhausted. And angry.

Recent events have validated my experiences, Im reminded that I'm not crazy. Im not aggressive. Im not alone. And this is reality. 

This has given me a renewed strength and purpose to be my authentic self at all times.

I dont believe that every white person is racist but I do believe in unconscious bias. 

As we experience another turning point in History and the conversation of racism is at the forefront, our white allies are finally becoming woke. A great thing. 

However for black people this has been a way of life, but maybe this time around well see significant change. 

Lots of damage has been done. Acknowledging our experiences is the first step towards trust. We need to engage in conversation in order to evolve.